So I’m talking to this girl and she tells me how she’s stuck in a rut – she knows what she wants but she doesn’t have a chance to ever achieve it. She’s totally, very doomed, she says. So I ask her, Why don’t you use the trick? “The what?” The reality hacking trick. When you do the unexpected twist to solve the task at hand. She doesn’t quite get it. I explain.

Don’t bury yourself in the head, I tell her, if you say you’re doomed, you think you’re doomed – if you think you’re doomed, you won’t see any other way to get out. So the key to find a vector of liberty is basically in your head. And it’s not even mysticism, it’s just how you deal with your shit. It’s very much like sitting with D in the ambulance car with him bleeding and looking very much out of any picture you can think of. And the ambulance guy tells me, “Hey, we see dozens of people every day who look worse than that. Those who want to live, survive. Those who don’t want to live that much anymore, they die. It’s that simple.

So I tell her, don’t bury yourself in the head. You – and you there, reading this -, you’re all into books and movies and protagonists and superheroes and people who effectively deal with their stuff. So make yourself into one of those people. Make up an ideal character. Make up your own superhero. A positive projection. Whatever the name is, just imagine the kind of person you really want to be. How would that person solve that problem the book/movie way? Imagine that and then make that happen. It is creation. A sheer force of will. Magick, if you will, quite close to how Crowley described it. However you call it, that’s what actually makes stuff happen.

She’s silent for a second and then she goes like And do you usually work things out the same way? And I tell her, No, I was never really forced to do it. And then I realize I just lied. The mindpower that was put into that trick was used, twice, I think, invested into spells of something like ten years. And when the discussion ends, I realize, the tricks don’t work anymore. And that explains a fuck lot about my life at the moment. And the first sentence I wrote ends the whole post. So I started to be a superhero, again.